My look is tres chic.

I’m doing good here at home. Going a little stir-crazy, naturally. I was able to have one of my drains removed this week. I am a side sleeper so I’m looking forward to everything healing up so I’m no longer sleeping like a mummy. This week has been a haze of sleeping, Murder She Wrote reruns and playing MarioKart with the girls. It’s been so difficult not to do things. I helped Ava make dinner one night and overdid it. Did you know you use your pec muscles for everything? Ugh.

Ava and Rocky. He’s such a laid-back dude. Ava started classes at University of Utah this past week. I know she’s going to do well and I’m excited for her.

Payton smeared her eye makeup without knowing it and when we showed her she couldn’t stop laughing. One thing that Ava loved about living in France was the evening meals together at the dinner table. I myself grew up in that type of family and I enjoyed it. I haven’t been good about implementing it in my own blended family. I usually get home from work and am too tired to make dinner every night. Not to mention I have a very picky eater in my youngest child and it’s always been difficult finding food she will eat. When Jeff has been out on the road I’ve gotten lazy, plus you know, chemo fatigue. I told Ava I would try harder to have dinner for all of us at least a few times a week. And just the few times we’ve had dinner together at the table since then we’ve enjoyed stories from each other’s day and laughing with each other.

I love watching Payton and Ava do miniature adulting. Ava brought home a package of sugar cookies and said she was scammed by the store. I asked her why and she said because the cookies had 1.25 on the top of the package and she thought it was a good deal, so she took it to the checkout where she was disheartened to learn they were not $1.25 but $4.99. I looked at the package and said, “That’s the expiration sticker. Best by 1/25, not that they’re $1.25.” Soon both of them will find out that being an adult is a scam, but they’ll find that out eventually.

Jeff with Rocky and Benny

Jeff has been taking excellent care of me. He has been home while he transitions to doing more local dirt work. Having him gone over the road during my treatments has been really hard for both of us. He was able to purchase a side dump trailer and we are hoping he will be able to be around more doing that kind of work.

I will start working from home this coming week. I’m lucky that I can do that. I’m also scheduled to have my other drain removed this week and will have the air removed from my tissue expanders. They will start filling the tissue expanders (my inflateables) with saline at that appointment. Eventually, after radiation I will have a reconstruction surgery. But that’s 6 months to a year away and I am not in any hurry. The reconstruction surgery is more complicated and I’ll have more limitations afterwards. I’m not excited. So I can wait.

Thanks to all of you for commenting and checking up on me. It means everything to me.